I've been reading through this and communities like this for several days now. This is the first time I've joined one and more to the point, the first time I've let myself accept I have a problem. I see so much of what I'm feeling, what I'm thinking, in the posts before me. Does it get better? Is there that hope? Please, someone tell me things can and will change. Tell me you can change this. That it won't always be like this.